Feeling like a loser
I quit kratom a few years ago. Tried an extract about 6 or 7 months ago and fell right back onto it. Started doing about 100mg a day of 7-oh. Just quit last Saturday. I feel like trash and haven't told my partner I relapsed. I feel like a piece of shit, my mental health is deteriorating rapidly and I can't sleep. I just want to take some so badly and I feel so shitty for feeling this way. Some word of encouragement would be awesome.
Edit: I'm a line cook and have a tumultuous history with substance abuse. It's easier to list things I haven't tried than things I have. I've been better. Drinking way down, no hard drugs. I don't know how I fell back into Kratom addiction. I mean I do know, I'm an addict, but I'm kicking myself hardcore right now.
Edit2: didn't buy any 7oh while at work for the first time since quitting, felt kinda good.