I (29M) love a friend (30F) since forever. Should I tell her?
So the story begins from school days, I have been in love with a friend from my school days. I have always been shy and nervous and it is because of my weight, I am overweight. And I have been working on it and trying to fix it, but it has impacted my self-esteem a lot. I have never been in any relationship because I liked this girl, and tbh, I have never been weird about it or have never let her feel that way. I have always been distant, we never meet or anything or even talk for that matter. But recently, my younger sister completed her 10th standard (yes, we have a long age gap as I lost my younger sister before and this one was born after that), and she is in the education field so I decided to get my sister to meet her and all the feeling and nervousness came again, and I have not been able to get her out of my head. The thing is I liked her and wanted to tell her during our school days and one of my friends said that you shouldn't by saying that girls don't like fat guys all that shit. So I should lose weight. And later, I came to know that he proposed her and then they began their relationship and were together for long time. The guy was a playboy and had different relationships but I never knew about their relationship until a few years back.
Definitely I felt betrayed a little from my male friend who actually wanted to side line me because he wanted to be with her. Now, they are not in a relationship, and tbh, I really want to be with her. She is like the perfect woman to me, she is intelligent, she stands up for herself, she has everything that I ever wanted in a woman, and from the school days to know her progression has been nothing but amazing.
The problem is I still don't have any guts, and I am worried if I tell her, if she would even to talk to me after this. What should I do?