I am a Woman, one day I will get to tell you. (Potentially Triggering)
I’m posting here thinking it might find it’s way to them, I don’t feel it’s right for me to text them after all this time but here it is. I am 19f and trans, when I was 13 I met the greatest person I have ever had in my life. We were together for 2 1/2 years before I started to experience heavy depression and suicidal thoughts, I left the relationship at this time feeling that it was taking a toll on the health of the relationship at the time. I refused to date again until a bit over a year later when we found our way back to each other. we dated for another 6 months but again I ran away realizing at this time I might be trans. That has always been something I thought about but explored a little bit with them and came to the conclusion I was a woman. I hated this. I hated that I was trans and tried to distance myself from this positive outlet because I didn’t want to admit I was a woman. After this period I started to reject I was queer all together to try and get away from this feeling. I had 2 relationships since both where I was unhappy because I wasn’t myself. It‘s been 2 years since we last spoke to each other and I hope you have moved on and are happy now but you and all the positive effects you have had on me have lived in my mind everyday. I still drink pink monster for the same stupid reason and I‘m always hoping you will call so I can tell you, I am trans. Through lots of therapy I finally accept this is who I am and since February 16th (ironic) I have been taking estrogen. I finally am accepting the part of me you worked so hard to get me to love and I probably wouldn’t be here without you. Thank you for everything Kat, I hope you are proud of me.