My experience as a visibly alternative PIMO in incult
Hello, I am F 18, and I am in the alternative community and would like to share my story and how im currently moving around the church while visibly looking like an anti. I haven't really seen anyone like me share their story so here I am. ^^
It was 2023 when I developed a sense of belonging to the alt community where freedom of self expression was the norm. It was also the time that I really didn't understood why being out of the norm or literally just simply having a fashion sense was so bad in inc. I asked my mom about it and told me that it was for unity, even though tons of inc women have bleached hair and tattoos; that's when I realized that what she said just doesn't make any sense. My first visible rebellion was probably by going to church with half red hair on, it probably sounds corny af but my mom made it sound like I was going to get dragged to jail and shot to death by a scan member that I thought it was cool asf but nothing really happened, I instead got one person complimenting it though im not sure if it's sincere.
My connection to the alt community greatly helped me to get my mind straight again and be immune to the brain washing. I just didn't find anymore logic or actually good reasoning to what they are teaching. My mental health definitely got worse when I realized that I was trapped in this cult with my mom who is fully fanatic who would emotionally and physically abuse me for just doing what I want that isn't harming me at all. I came to a point where I would try to skip church because my mom would get mad if I miss a single church day. It didn't really end well for me cus I got noticed for it and mom scolded me over it. Contrary to a lot of people telling me to wait until I got a job and moved out, I went all out with the rebellion and got myself piercings and would be wearing it at church, I definitely got told to take it off but I never did it and they never really did anything about it. I also stopped giving money and participating with the church but I do still go to church because I just hate having to talk about not going and being scolded.
I then got piercings again and mom absolutely hated it, i got physically harmed for it and was threatened to get sent to province where all of my relatives there are cult members. We had a big fight about it and accidentally outed myself as an atheist. The fight was so bad I caught her saying that she prefers me to be a bad mouthed inc than to be alt, called my friends and schoolmates fake when they are the only people that made me feel like a human being. It was probably the nail to the coffin for me on being a big anti inc. I also experienced being snatched by my arm to question my fashion choice, looking back at it now I should've pushed her back bcs wtf.
Currently im still a PIMO, still rebellious as ever. I know that I am probably corny asf to a lot of you but just like you all I also have my own fight against the system that is holding our country down from the real democracy it deserves, im sorry for the long ahh post but I hope that my story comforted anyone but do note that I do not recommend doing what I do because even if im not experiencing any hard backlash from OWE right now it probably wouldn't be the same for everyone.