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Mum and dad got diagnosed when I was 28 I’m now 31 and it’s only gettting harder, looked after mum for 2 years she’s now in a home and now looking after dad , I’m angry at my life, jealous of my friends and their freedom and how they have their mum and dad, jealous they’re starting their families and their parents will be around for it
Sorry if this is the wrong thread and I don’t want to sound like a martyr but it’s very hard to keep going if anyone can relate I hope you’re ok but also be good to chat

Not sure if this is the correct place to post, I’m 31 my mum has dementia and my dad has Alzheimer’s my mum is now in the end stages I cared for her for 2/3 years before she eventually had to go into a home. I’m now watching my dad decline and I’m drowning, I’m drowning in grief and anger I’m grieving for my mum that’s still here that I barely go and see because I find it so difficult and I’m at home with my dad because he can’t be by himself and I’m glad I can do it but it’s so hard.
I don’t know how to function without my mum I see my friends married and starting their families and I feel angry at where I am in my life and jealous of what they have that I never will my parents won’t be there if I have children and I say if because it feels pointless without them being able to meet my mum and dad I can’t watch anything that has a mum scene I block it all out I’m drinking to try and shut my brain up I don’t know what I’m asking for or trying to achieve here but if anyone at all is going through something similar I hope you’re ok and reach out , I don’t know if this even makes sense