Therapist recommendations in Austin?
LSS, after an incredibly toxic and unhealthy marriage spanning nearly 30 years, my parents have decided to get a divorce. They, along with my younger siblings (both in their twenties) live on the east coast and I'm here in Austin.
I'm not surprised, but it's a lot to process. It's been really hard witnessing the ups and downs my entire life, hearing about horrible arguments (sometimes with police involvement) via a teary phone call from my sister, CPS involvement with a domestic incident when my brother was not quite 18, the guilt of moving cross-country for work and leaving my siblings behind to cope on their own...
I never went to therapy growing up because my dad used to tell us it was for freaks. At 26 I know that that's not true, and now that I have a job with insurance I can take matters into my own hands and I'm ready. I just need some recommendations because I don't really know where to start.
I'm on Zocdoc, so I know how to find a provider in network, but there's just so many options. So here I am, asking a bunch of strangers on the internet for their personal therapist recommendations, lol.
If it helps, I am 26 almost 27, female, and primarily looking to discuss the impact witnessing a really unhealthy relationship has had on me, as well as the guilt I feel for not being there for my mom/siblings as these past few years have played out. My mom has relied on me as her personal therapist since I was about 15, despite numerous attempts I've made at setting that boundary. My view of marriage and having kids is a bit skewed because of all of it, so I'd like to sort that out as well. Only sharing in case anyone has had a similar experience and knows someone good at talking through these specific issues.
I have Blue Cross Blue Shield, I'm not looking for a prescription, and I'm open to video call or in person sessions. I think that's it? Happy to answer any clarifying questions that could help me find a better rec, thanks in advance.