Everytime I feel like I’ve recovered it comes back :(
I had my first incident of a sharp pain while passing stool and a fissure 4 months ago. Went to the doctor and was prescribed dialtizem cream and stool softener. Took these for four weeks and did my biggest mistake where I stopped and it came back. I was told to continue taking the stool softeners and not to stop. Took them for a month and was doing okay so I stopped stool softeners and 3-4 days I was passing stool well and was happy. But then today again I felt a sharp pain and it is back again. Everytime I see it come back I get so sad and feel like I have no control over my body. Is taking stool softener every day the only way out? Should I go to the doctor again to get another prescription of the cream and follow for a longer course or am I doomed and surgery is the only way out? I’m scared of any injections and surgery. I’m also hearing that in women there is risk of incontinence after surgery. I’m in my mid twenties and very young and want to find a way to reverse this that I won’t regret. Partly looking for some advice on how to manage long term without surgery and cure and partly looking to vent because sharing this with friends is embarrassing and when I tell my mom I can just see how sad she is for me so I just keep it to myself.