Did I do the right thing?
Hey y’all
Trying to finally push my mind and heart to finally move on from a girl I thought was the LOML so just asking advice on what happened and if what I did was right.
I recently broke up with my girlfriend or she broke up with me (idk) around a month ago. The end of our relationship I feel was riddled with insecurities and paranoia due to cheating on her part. She was sending nude pictures to another guy and from what I saw texting multiple other guys in ways disrespectful of our relationship. Here comes what I’m asking advice for, I had a gut feeling something was off after we had just finished having sex and went through her phone ( I’m not proud of what I did). In this case I found the pictures and texts to other guys. I’ll spare you the whole argument but in the end my dumbass stayed with her despite this happening, we didn’t last and had multiple on and off against stints. During one of our “breaks” she called me one night and turned it all around on me saying I shouldn’t have gone through her phone ( I’ll take that, Becuase it was wrong) but ultimately said I actually pushed her to do that and that is one thing that has left me completely flabbergasted to this day. I’ve asked multiple people who I’m confident could play devils advocate (weird I know) and no one is pushed to do that unless they really don’t care for you. So I come to my first point was what I did wrong or I did what my gut feeling told me to do? I often ask myself when would’ve I found out? She never really apologized for this occurrence and I just feel like the biggest idiot ever.
I hold myself accountable for alot of my mistakes and have told her this multiple times. The beginning of our relationship was unfortunately a lot of me projecting traumas from past relationships but I went to therapy to fix those issues and be a better man for her. Even then she admitted to meeting with other guys that have made their intentions clear with her in a sexual manner during the beginning of our relationship. A lot of hindsight is finally coming up and maybe she wasn’t the girl I thought I knew this entire time.
There is alot more I can answer in the comments if more clarification is needed but I guess I just needed advice from complete strangers and if I should just move on and see finally she was never the love of my life.