Advice Needed- Nikkah Dress
I'm getting married this October (5 months from now) and am having intense doubts about my nikkah dress.
For some context, we began planning the wedding late (Feb/March) and I was already anxious about getting outfits. I'm having a combined Nikkah and Reception, with an outfit change in between. I had my heart set on a Pishwas style with lehenga in an airy light green (or a light color), and ended up with something vaguely similar but that feels totally off. Its beautiful and im sure will be beautiful in its own way, but it just doesnt feel bridal to me and isnt what I wanted even though I said yes to it. It was something I found on day 1 of shopping, and I didnt even try much on before settling on it.
I feel so guilty. My reception suit is much pricier so I was already struggling to find the style I liked in a price range that made my mom comfortable (she had paid for the outfits, despite my protests). I dont have anyone in Pakistan, but my bhabis mom knows a designer and offered to get a quote for me in case i want him to make an outfit. I sent pics of a fit I loved and he quoted 1.5k usd. The one I already purchased was 1k.
My fitting for the outfit I dont like isnt until July. Im unsure if I should wait and see how i feel, or just order the new outfit. If I do order, I insisted to be able to pay for the new outfit given it was my mistake. Just feeling so lost and sad, I didnt want to waste anyone's money and I just dont know why I agreed so hastily. I dont want to feel uncomfortable in my own skin on my wedding day, either.
Any advice?