I feel so lost
So yea, newly diagnosed. I mean, I've always heard voices. Most of which I just want to chalk up to say. 'Growing' or you know the 72 hrs no sleep. Heavily caffeinated just being a roudy bunch..hearing them was 'ok' all until around a year or 2 ago. When after many hours in therapy and kind of seeing the real problem. Or if there was even a problem. I still battle with 'is it a problem'. And the answer is. It never used to be a problem. Pretty much calling attention to the whole idea made it what it is today. Now it's constant banter. I'm not certain what will come of me. Everything is just way to much. I want to be excited, today my daughter graduates kindergarten. I'm not a very social butterfly. The more I sit and think. The more I can see myself not fitting into 'life'.
I lost my father last year, and my mother 2 years before. And that was it, I lost my 'safe' zone. My parents would never turn me away if I needed a place to go.i just wish my parents would have taken better care of themselves.
Daughter graduates today, but there is also an eviction notice on the door. I'm not sure what we are going to do. We are trying to dash to make some kind of a payment. Honestly who would be willing to co sign on a student loan? I thought I could take out a student loan to get bills caught up. And to find a safer vehicle for my little family. So now that I'm currently enrolled in southern New Hampshire University, going for a business degree. Also needed the loan to fix computer for school. Week 5-6 the school will disperse loan money. So now I'm struggling to get assignments turned in cause I only have my phone to do so. I need like a life coach. Or idk.
So that's where my predicament is. Any kind of feedback would be awesome. Thank you all