TW: fear of being fat
Background: Used to be 70kg, now 120kg due to weight restoration. I am now very overweight and look it.
I spoke with my psychologist about how I can never accept being overweight due to the discrimination present. She gave me a puzzled look and asked me to describe more. I explained how how overweight women are portrayed in the medial e.g. clumsy, laughed at when they break lawn chairs, unlucky in love, bullied by skinny blonde chicks. She replied "huh, interesting, I havent thought about that". Sorry what. I then did some research and found numerous studies discussing the presence of discrimination in workplaces, education and especially in media (social and film). So I feel I am not wrong in thinking that being overweight means I will be discriminated. I have a fear of rejection, so the thought of discrimination terrifies me. I already get discriminated against for being notable autistic.
As a result of this, I will never be happy being fat.