I need assurance that I am doing the right thing
This is incredibly messy, and sorry for my broken english, im from Brazil, but here is a short version of what happened.
Ive met this girl since she was 14, and I was 15. Today we are 19 and 20. We have been together since we met. Our relationship was amazing, we loved eachother very much, I know how special she is, and how she makes me wanna feel. She always said she felt the same.
Early thias year (february), she said to me she wanted to breakup. This devastated me, beacuse it was so out of the blue. Prior to her saying this, we were on a strange stage, we didnt see eachother as we used to, mostly because of school and work, I really needed to focus on work, and maybe didnt pay that much attention to her.
But she stood firmly on her decision to breakup with me, and didnt gave me any explanations whatsoever about nothing. I tried to talk, to understand her, but she was decided to leave.
For months, I was broken and empty, we always planned to marry and spend the rest of our lives together, and she was gone without any explanation, she said she needed time to understand herself.
Early April, she messaged me, saying she wanted to talk.
I went to her appartment, and we talked for hours. She said she missed me, she was sure I was the love of her life and that she could picture a life for her without me. She said she needed time to understand herself and that she wanted me back.
I asked her if she hooked up with anyone else in the meantime, and she said no.
I took her back. The whole month we spend together, it was amazing, of course we talked alot about mistakes and where we needed to change and get better for our relationship to work, but it was amazing.
Then, last week, I found out she actually hooked up with a guy from her job. An older with, divorced with a kid. This disgusted me. My girl, my princess, my treasure, the girl I wanted to marry, spent the night at this dudes house. Not only that, she lied to me without even thinking twice. We were out first everything. I just cant look at her the same.
Everynight, the image of she and him is hammered into my mind, I just cant live with this. She decided to breakup, and while I was suffering, she went into another mans arms, and now she wants to come back like nothing happened?
I decided to end things with her, but I cant stop thinking that I am making the biggest mistake of my life.
There is too much emotion, so many memories, and she came back, what if now things work out? What if now its mean to be?
Please, you all have read my version of the story, but I need to think other opinions on this because I cant decide what to do. It hurts so much. I feel like I made the right choice, but I still feel like I will regret letting her go.
Tldr, she broke up with me, hooked up with a dude from her job, and wants to get back with me