Am I being pushed out of my job?
As I stated in the title, I think I’m being pushed out of my job. I have an extremely bossy and nosy coworker who does not like me. She tries to control everyone and watches everything everyone does, then reports it to one of our supervisors that she is very close with. I stay out of her way and to myself. I don’t talk to her unless absolutely necessary. I believe that she doesn’t like that she can’t control me.
Literally from the very first day I started people would tell me how I learn quickly and I do the job well and that would piss her off. She’s extremely competitive. She would always downplay my work, work ethic and make me feel like I’m doing something wrong because it’s not how she prefers it. Management and her are very close. I’ve been there for 2 and half years and so far she’s gotten at least 4 people fired, 3 quit and a few more rushed to leave the department, to get away from her. Management knows all this and they back her up. I think some of them are afraid of her lol.
An older man that was about to retire warned me about her and management but I didn’t listen. I’m kicking myself in the ass now for it. He said not to trust anyone in management and that lady gets people fired so that we’re never full staffed because she wants overtime to always be available.
My problem started since beginning of May. For the most part I ignore her and management would ignore her comments about my work since they knew it wasn’t true. Last month someone overheard me talking to a former coworker that use to work in our department and they brought it back to management, twisted my words to make it sound much worse, repeated things I didn’t say at all and now I’m being treated differently. I noticed the shift in the beginning of May.
They’ve added to my workload, always minimizing my work that I do incredibly well (it’s easy work), pointing out flaws in anything I do all while ignoring coworkers who aren’t doing their job properly at all. Disappearing for 20 to 30 minutes when it’s not our break time and it affects others work including mine since we work in conjunction with one another. I don’t care what they do but when I’m being told that I’m not working properly and I literally work by the book but others are doing anything they want without a comment it gets annoying.
Sometimes I do overtime on my day off working a different station. On those days the person working my usual station does much less than I’m required to do and no one says anything. It’s as though the duties are specific to me and not the job itself.
Coworkers also started to treat me differently. A few of them started to provoke me in petty ways hoping for a response but I don’t say anything, I’m afraid of my temper. I have a really bad temper and I can sometimes explode on people after suppressing a lot. I think that’s what they want. I believe they want to force a negative reaction out of me to get me fired or push me until I want to quit.
I started documenting everything I see going on since mid May once I realized what I think they’re trying to do. I’m pissed off to realize that I work in such a toxic place and almost everyone is a part of the drama. I hate drama and pettiness. Only thing is I need this job as I have family back home in a third world country that depends on me.
I fantasize about yelling at them and cursing them out every day. Coworkers are constantly prying into my personal business and I have to tell them I’m not comfortable sharing that, then their attitude shifts with me. They become nasty and short with me. My supervisors and my manager mostly are always gaging my emotions and acting as though they’re my therapist psychoanalising me. Expressing fake concern and trying to force me to open up to them and see them as some kind of confidant. It infuriates me because I just want to remain professional.
I went from being a happy, bubbly, kind and helpful person to being angry and standoffish every time I’m there. I can’t stand working there anymore. I pray every day that God removes me from this God forsaken place. I’ve applied to other positions in different departments but always denied even though I’m qualified. I believe that management is blocking me from moving forward. That was the conversation that was overheard and brought back to management. I’m at my wits end and I’m afraid of exploding on the wrong person since I feel myself not caring anymore. Whenever I walk into that building I get instantly angry.
I’ve been watching YouTube videos and I realize that majority of what I’m experiencing is not protected activity. Anyway if you have any advice on how I should maneuver in a toxic workplace that I cannot leave right away I’m all ears.
Btw I work in a major hospital in NYC