Becoming a monk
Hey yall, don’t wanna share too much but I’m currently a catechumen and have been going to An Antiochian Orthodox Church since September. And before I ask this question, yes I’ve had numerous talks with my spiritual father and heed his advice. Now this may sound like a dumb question but, is it wrong to really want to be a monk no matter what? Especially as a catechumen. My community is great and they don’t belittle me for being a catechumen or anything. But the thing is, is that even when I was a Protestant, I started truly seeing that this world has absolutely nothing to offer me. My Government is corrupt (USA baby) and you know everything else I could reference that’s currently going on with this world. I am not trying to “ take the easy way” and just flee the world because I don’t want to try my best, but i genuinely cannot fathom trying to live in this world. I don’t want to waste my time any more, I just want to prepare myself to the full extent for when I meet Christ. And by all means, I am not saying you cannot do that without being a monk. I’m sure some of you feel the same way, it’s not really a depressive feeling, more of like, “Why would I not devote my entire life, every second, and breath, fully to Christ” I’m so tired of being surrounded by social media, technology, vice after vice so easily accessible. Glory be to our Lord Jesus Christ, that he’s been able to teach me all of this at a young age (only 22) If anyone wants to help, share opinions, anything, please feel free. May the Lord Jesus Christ have mercy on us all. God bless! Christ is risen! (My first Pascha was absolutely beautiful and I visited a monastery for the first time about 2 months ago!)