Not sure if this is something to confess
Firstly, I apologize if things are worded inappropriately or confusing. I’m not very good with words.
I guess i am what you would call a cradle Orthodox. I was baptized as a baby in Ukraine (my mom is from there) but growing up in America my parents didn’t really go to church.
I am married to my husband who growing up never had any faith really (his mother is a staunch atheist and also does witchcraft (her words, not mine.).
I have struggled with bulimia for the better part of a decade. Though it’s not so severe now, I have done bad things in the past because of it. Things that I would consider something I cannot blame mental health on alone. I won’t go into detail because this is not the place for that.
Vespers and confession is coming up and we recently joined the Antioch Orthodox Church in our area since we just moved back here. I want to talk about it. It was a huge dark cloud over my life. Also, the priest said my baptism is valid but I cannot receive communion unless I confess. I am not doing this to merely receive communion. I genuinely feel like confessing what I have done will get a lead weight off my chest.
The problem I my husband, knowing me and the struggles of my past (I have been very open to him with that) says that it’s because I am/was sick and I shouldn’t blame myself too heavily.
Well, I dunno. It puts a doubt in my mind. Am I going to be wasting the priests time in a sense? I am terrible with words, forgive me. I know I am confessing to Christ, not the priest. I guess I am just a bundle of nerves and I doubt every little thing I say or do or overthink.