u/Relevant-Swan7621

I'm a man and have a deep desire to be married. It is something that is constantly on my mind and if I didn't have that as something to drive me I probably wouldn't participate in much of anything not related to church. If I was told that I would never be married I would probably go join a monestary not because I want to but because I simply see no reason to continue living in "the world" is this idolatry/ selfishness? I care about my friends and family and I have interests that I enjoy. But if I'm going to be single for my entire life, hypothetically, then I just don't see a point in having a job or anything else of that nature really.

I'm a convert in the US and have never heard of this but have seen people mocking us for paying hundreds or even a thousand dollars for baptism. Where is this happening and why?

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If Orthodoxy is true and I truly receive the body and blood of Christ, then why do still feel so negative? Others are very negative as well. Why do Mormons and Baptists seem so much more positive and happy?

I'm 27m and never been in a relationship. I don't think I have any skills with women and I have basically no opportunity to meet women in real life and dating apps do not work for me at all. Is it worth just accepting that I'm going to die single?