u/EquipmentIll3615

gonna apply for class of 31

Demographics

Gender: Female

Race/Ethnicity: Indian International

Income Bracket: fully pay, not looking for fin aid

Type of School: private rich kid-ish school, class of approx 180 kids, sends 10 or so kids to t20s each year

Hooks: None

Intended Major(s):Economics, indicated English as second major

Academics

Grades: (national curriculam)

9th: 77%

10th: 92%

11th: 96%

12th: 97% (predicted)

Rank (or percentile): school doesnt rank

# of Honors/AP/IB/Dual Enrollment/etc: 3

Standardized Testing

• SAT: 1600
• AP/IB: 5 in AP Macro, 5 in AP Micro, 4 in AP Eng Lang & Lit
• 184 out of 190 in Cambridge B2 First For Schools Exam

Extracurriculars/Activities

1. EIC of school newspaper
2. Summer Student Volunteer in the Multimedia Department at local NGO for past 4 years
3. OTW Translation Volunteer and Writer on AO3 (Wrote 5 works throughout middle school and high school collectively amounting to over 50k words, garnering 35k views, 3k likes and 100+ comments. Now volunteering for over an year as a Translator)
4. Interned at local VC firm
5. Invested in stock market, grew portfolio by 70%
6. Member of Semifinalist Team in the Wharton Global Youth Investing Competition 
7. Participant of the Wharton Global Youth Leadership in the Bussiness World On-site Program 
8. Participant of the UChicago Summer Session Emerging World Leaders Program
9. Founder & President of Investing Club
10. Paid Assistant Tutor

Awards/Honors

List all awards and honors submitted on your application.

1. Very High Commendation in John Hopkins Essay Writing Competition in the Economics category
2. Gold Medal in Queen's Commonwealth Essay Writing Competition
3. Letter to the Editor published in Wall Street Journal
4. AP Scholar
5. State-level entrepreneurship team competition win

LORs

not done yet but

Eco teach gonna write a good one since seniors say he's fire with them

Eng or Math teach, will submit the one who writes a better LOR

Essays

already got soooo many ideas because i love creating writing. i have like a 100 hooks and scripts for video essays in my notes app, and i have a lot of guidance too from my brother, school counsellor etc etc. so i think im gonna do good.

im gonna show that im someone proficient in qualitative economics since i was always a great writer and later got interested in eco thru essays abt financial concepts. basically gonna frame my story as a future economic theorist or business journalist. still deciding direction.

for context im in high school so obvi still live with em

ive always thought my parents were really good ones because theyve always given me freedom to do whatver i want, whether its to go out with friends or pursue the career i want or never compare me with kids doing better in academics or other stuff, but this is the one thing they messed up.

as a kid, my elder brother would often call me "fat" as siblings love to call each other mean names. he only did it when he was little and has since stopped. my mom also used to always point out when i gained or lost weight. and she also does this thing she thinks is funny? like when she's laying on a bed i like to drape myself over her like a cat because its my way of showing affection, and she alwyas starts groaning and acting like she's in pain and telling me to get off. i genuinely always thought this was because i am heavy and was actually crushing her. but recently, i did this with one of my friends who is maybe>! 5 kgs !<lighter than me and the same age as me but she didnt even say anything or seem affected? so ive realised my mom overreacts on purpose but idk why

anyways, i never beleived them when they said i was fat cause i always thought they were just..idk what i thought, maybe messing with me or smth? i have no idea.

then, what really started to hurt my feelings was hwen i started middle school. kids, esp boys, started freely calling me fat to hurt my feelinsg when they were upset w me. (im >!bmi 25 !<btw, have always been around that, so slightly chubby)

at one point, i got an yearly ritutal. every year, we have a medical checkup at school where they take our height, weight, blood pressure, basic things like that. and every year, the school doctor tells me to do sports and loose a little weight in front of all my classmates. every yera, its just as hurtful and triggering. then, i start eating less and exercising everyday. i only eat 1-2 meals a day, a few snacks, and do yoga/gym/walks or whatever. i start loosing weight, but then at about a week, i binge, and i give up because i get other things to focus on like exams, social life etc.

anyways, thats not even the main thing i struggle with. none of this is. my problem is how my mom restricts my food. she's a total health nut, does weigh training every day (despite being 50), always making and looking up healthy recipes that taste good (which im greatful for ofc, i know not everybody gets to eat food like that daily), but she's extremely fussy abt what i eat as well. im a teenager so sometimes i get cravings for junk food which i think is normal, but i can never ask for it without her making a fuss.

we're an ingredients household who never have any chips, cookies etc lying around, never have. i dont have any money so not like i can use it to eat what i want to whne i want to. its just really frustrating because whenever i ask if i can order in food from a resteraunt or buy a snack from the supermarket, she'll either sigh, make a disgusted face, or say smth like "you had (junk food) that day" and try to barter with me to convince me not to.

as a kid, this was also why whenever we'd go to resteraunts to eat, i'd stuff myself until i felt like i could burst, because i was thinking "if i dont eat this tasty food im getting now, i'll regret it tomorrow because im probably not going to get this chance in a while". i kept doing this until i was 12, when i got terrible food poisioning for the first time in my life, and now whenever i overeat i throw up

its honestly so tiring because ive never asked for this stuff until recently because im at that age where you kinda get junk food cravings. i dont even ask that often, and because she acts like thsi whenever i do, by the time im done arguing with her, i dont even feel like eating anymore.

for example yesterday, i called her after school and we had this conversation.

"mom, i wanna eat cheesballs"

"YOU ALWAYS WANNA EAT SMTH"

"ok i dont wanna eat it anymore"

(then she felt guilty for yelling at me ig?"

"cheesballs like the store bought ones? alright, you can get some"

"not, its okay, i dont want them anymore. i'll come straight home"

then whne i got home she asked why i didnt buy them and i told her i didnt feel like eating them anymore because she yelled at me. she just hugged me and we never talked abt it.

another time, whne i was pretty small (like 12ish) i got into an agrument abt her how all the other kids' moms give them snacks like cookies and stuff for school but she only ever gave me fruit. she said she can make these things at home, and i said i dont want the homemade ones tho i want the ones everybody else gets. we yelled at each other a bit, she started a whole "fine do whatever you want" tone, i felt guilty, i said okay, and that was that.

im just so exhuasted. i just wanna control what i eat and when i eat it, but she wont even let me do that, and sometimes i hate her for it. i wish i had the courage to say that to her face sometimes, but i know she'd be very hurt by it. (this is also because of other things she does that im not gonna dive into in this post)

this all leads to today. ive switched schools so now i go to one where i gte breakfast and lunch there instead of my mom packing food for me. ive started restricing a lot. usually, i only eat 1 slice of bread with jam for breakfast and a scoop of rice with a shit ton of water for lunch. at home, i dont eat snacks anymore and take the option to skip dinner whenever i can.

on days i dont go to school, im ravenous. i eat 4 meals a day (esp when my mom isnt home to stop me) for the skae of eating, even when i dont feel hungry and dont even like the food im eating.

all of this, combined with an always dormant insecurity of being fat and wanting to be skinny, im pretty sure i have some kind of eating disorder.

idk what the point of this post was. i just hope im not acting crazy.