just got my grade back for cs1 after my second attempt. i failed the exam. again. another c- in my transcript.
1st time i took it with kullu online summer 25. barely went to class i'll be honest. got a 38. now this spring with ahmed. got a 36 and this time i actually actively participated. so i cant help but laugh at me getting a worse grade than the first time when i barely tried and was one question away from the passing threshold.
i'm so disappointed in myself but honestly i'm not surprised. i didn't put in the effort or go to lecture as often as i should've. i thought my luck wouldve came through. i was a mostly A/B student in high school with little to no effort and so college has def been a shock for me. i also know i've continued my bad habits and made little to no effort to fix myself.
what i'm embarrassed about is having to tell people i failed again.
i was so excited to have the summer off and honestly i think i'm still gonna take it off bc the commute, gas, tolls etc is gonna hurt economically.
i don't know what to do anymore. i know ive lacked motivation for a while but i really thought my luck would come through this time. i know i didnt deserve to pass. but i still can't help but be disappointed and frustrated right now. ive been doing summer terms since i was 16 and i'm so burnt out its not even funny
also does anyone know the procedure for failing a class twice? i applied for grade forgiveness thinking id pass but obviously thats not the case. if i apply again in the fall when i retake will the two C-'s go away or am i stuck with one.
do i have to contact an advisor? am i on probation? i know i can look this all up later but i'm so upset right now i don't want to yet.
i'm just looking for advice from anyone who's been in the same shoes/kind words bc i'm really down right now.
edit: i'm actually considering redoing it for the summer but like i said itll hurt me financially. id have to figure out tuition entirely since it's one class (bright futures wont cover it), parking pass, work schedule, etc. if moving it to fall i wont have to worry abt tuition but graduation wise, i'll be behind since i'm pushing back classes again and would have to replan my remaining terms.
plus i feel like taking the summer off when i don't deserve it will make me too relaxed/complacent.