1 week since my abortion
i (21f) had an abortion recently through heyjane and even though i know deep down it was the right decision for me i still feel so guilty about it. i keep going back and forth between feeling relief and feeling grief and its honestly exhausting. i know i wasnt ready mentally, emotionally, physically, or financially to raise a child and i know having a baby wouldnt have been what i wanted but part of me still feels horrible for making the choice i did.
it sucks because i can logically understand why i did it while still emotionally hurting over it yk :/ i think what makes it harder is that i really do want kids with my partner so it hurts to have to terminate but im just not ready. i dont regret protecting my future and making the responsible choice but i still feel so selfish. i feel sadness and guilt and just lots and lots of shame. a little embarrassed that i ended up in this position. feel very alone and stupid. why am i feeling like this when im the one that made the decision to terminate??? idk its been 8 days and im still bleeding and tbhh i hope it never ends. i feel like the constant bleeding is the least i deserve to deal with as some sort of consequence or punishment :/