I got a 1,0 in my masters thesis but I can´t find the courage to tell my mum, because after I put myself through Uni and School basically on my own, my mum will still say that I owe the congratulations for my good grades to her. This sucks.
I went low contact with my mum (have to be in contact for family organisation things still, but keep it to about 20 minutes per month on the phone). Yesterday she called me, I decided to call back tomorrow because I need to prepare emotionally for that. Today is mothers day, and I called her back at 10:30. When I dialed, I joked to my bf " wanna bet that she yells at me for disturbing her so early?" Guess what. When she picked up she said "I just got up. You should know that. What are you calling so early? I call you back later." Mind you, this is the woman who calls me at any time of night to dump her stuff on me, who called me at 5:00 in the morning to tell me my grandpa had died, allthough he died in the evening before. Who never once asks how I am.
And still. Still I am so stupid to think, that I need to call her on mothers day. That she would care.
She threw me out of the house when I opened an own bank account at 18 to manage my own money. She asked me to smuggle p0t for her when I was 20. She asked me to testify for something in court for her, that I did not even see or could know, just to bail her out. I did none of that, and thats why I am the "unreliable" one.
And still, I call, still, there is that stupid bit of me who thinks "maybe we can fix this." I still, despite years of therapy, think "maybe this time".
No child goes off contact because they want to, but because they get forced to do it, and it hurts.
Happy mothers day to all of us who survived this, who became capable and loving adults not because, but despite their parents.
Hello! I am working on my dissertation, so I technically have 100% Homeoffice and have to organise my work-time alone. I noticed that it helps me to simulat a normal 9 hour office work day to get things done. I am searching for an app or else, which allows me to build my own time-tracking to simulate working hours.
I have found numerous apps to track work time, but I need one that shows me how many hours I still have due (f.e. if I "clock in" at 8, it should show me that I have 9 hours to go). I already found an app that lets me create NFC tags, so I can just tab my phone against the tag that I glued to my desk and then the clock starts counting, which is way easier for me than alsways going into the app and it feels more like "clocking in at work".
But I did not find an app so far that
- shows left-over time and schedules for the week
- has NFC tags / compatibility
I´d love to hear your recommendations!