I have so much school work but I feel numb
I’m in Grade 10 and I have a lot of schoolwork and exams coming up but I literally have no motivation or energy to start anything. I have a big math test worth 15% of my grade that I didn’t study for, another assignment from a other class worth 15% due Monday at 11:59 pm, and two art assignments worth 15% each (one I barely started and one I haven’t started at all). Exams are also next week!!!
My room is also a mess and I can’t even bring myself to clean it or organize anything. Ever since second semester of Grade 9 my motivation has been really low and I started falling behind. This put me in a very dark place to the point where I was skipping school making it very hard for me to leave my bed and I also just stopped caring about work.
I’ve tried things like the 5 minute rule, breaking tasks down, and other common advice but I just don’t feel any motivation or drive at all to do any of that, I just feel stuck and mentally exhausted all the time. Right now it feels like I know everything matters but I just feel numb and have no urgency at all. I can’t seem to start anything even though I’m stressed about it. The weird part about all this is that I’m supposed to feel stressed but I don’t I feel nothing, I have zero motivation/ energy. Normally I would feel stressed but sometimes but brain just shuts down it happens so quickly I barely get the chance to feel.
I just really want to get back my motivation/ energy back but i don’t know how when it seems impossible at the moment.