Yep the post partum anxiety is hitting me hard at 6 months pp. I'm working on getting help with it but that is taking some time. My husband is getting a bit burned out about my spiralling. He tries though. So I thought I would post here. This is mostly for me to get my thoughts and feelings written down.
It was mostly my decision to have a child later. I'm 39 now and I'm struggling with my decision. It was my choice to wait so long to have her. I was happily married for 10 years. I had a good job. I don't know why I waited now. The reasons I remember all feel so dumb. I wanted to start at 33 but things kept happening in my life and I didn't get around to taking my IUD out until I was 37. That is only a couple of years but it feels like a gigantic chasm.
My therapist tells me to reframe my worries and to focus on the facts. She is here now. I'm so glad I didn't wait any longer. I'm so glad I didn't have too much trouble conceiving her. Pregnancy was hard and delivery was really hard. But this baby makes it worth it. She is the best baby I could have. She is perfect. I will try my absolute darndest to give her the best life she could possibly have. I know that nothing in life is guaranteed. If I had tried earlier it wouldn't be this baby. I don't have a time machine.
What has your experience been like if you waited to have kids? What ways have you managed your ppa?