No contact and if i should break it
Currently 1 month into no contact (i sent a harry potter book and we chatted shortly after breakup)
2 months since break up
so the issue with me is im the reason for the break up. we were long distance and i pushed back a move because it was to soon (she also agreed) but i was also going to help her move into her new place and my medication came a bit late which caused plane tickets to go to 1k usd. The issue was i ended up going out that weekend and when she said she wanted to end it at the end of the weekend i just caved and said what needed to be said because i needed to work on myself.
So ive been going therapy, working on myself, gym, no more drinking literally just doing everything i should have when we were together.
So heres the reason why i want to break no contact.
So when we were dating i gave her this penguin (which was given to me from st jude childrens hops) and penguins go back to the same mate every single mating season and never cheat. So it means forever and she knows that
she said "i could send it back but i sleep with it every night"
im moving to the same state as her (roughly 3 hours away so alot closer than what we were before)
I want to show her i changed and i want to break no contact when the time is right (first week of july) and im content with any answer. I guess how do i go about it, im planning on bringing up something i told her when we planned on moving in together. is this a good move. we have one chance on this planet and i know i should have changed before but i didnt and thats something i have to live with but i cant lose her.