Am I a a*****e
Hi everyone! Maybe you will see me as an asshole directly when you read this but I just have to write this down one time and that’s it. I’m in a really healthy relationship with a girlfriend I love very deeply that I hope is my future for the rest of my life, but I have always had this person in the back of my mind. We meet some years ago at a high school here in Sweden and she had a boyfriend first but things end between them and I was kind of the first guy after their breakup. It was really great sometimes and sometimes it was really hard, but I really liked her and I think I still do in someways. It never really ended well, we “dated” for like only some months but she was everything back then and then it was just a closed chapter.
After that we where at a “siting” everyone from high school was there and we talked a lot of what happened I really liked her still and ended with us going to my apartment, one on the couch and the other on the bed. Then things really just died but I have always had her in the back of my head like a crush that is always there and the thing is I can’t really let the feeling go, I now it’s been like 3 years ago and I have been with my girl for like 2 soon but I don’t really know how to let her go from my thoughts, it’s always like “what could have happened between us” what if we just didn’t argue that much and that I left high school because I couldn’t take it more. Both for being heartbroken but also mentally drained with everything that happened in my life then. I don’t really know where I’m getting at with all this, maybe it was just that it never really ended and when I got together with my girlfriend she was still in the back of my mind. Well if you have got this in to the text and if you are her (I don’t think she will ever read this) you start with a E
Bye and have a lovely day everyone