Is it normal to feel as isolated and alienated from my peers as I do?
Hi guys,
For context, I have combine type adhd/add, which in turn give me quite the terrible anxiety and depression. On top of this, I’ve always been seen as the “weird nerd” who makes all As.
For my entire school ‘career’, I’ve felt like an outcast. Sure, I have a couple of friends, but I’ve never felt like a PART of a friend group or a PART of someone’s life— just kinda like a background character. My teachers, for years, have said that “middle school will be better” and “highschool will be better” and (I’m gonna be a senior this upcoming school year) I’ve only just felt more and more isolated from my peers.
I don’t know if this is like a ‘narcissistic’ trait or something, since I am in the top ten students of my class, but sometimes I just look around and just see how stupid everyone is
*NOTE: I AM IN TEXAS, OUR EDUCATION SYSTEM IS SHIT*
(Someone told me that Christopher Columbus though natives were Indians because “of the feather things”, guys we are almost adults)
I have ‘weird’ interests, and I do not agree with the politics that are most popular in my area, which causes me to get bullied by others. What messes with me the most is the absolute exclusion when it comes to things I genuinely enjoy. I have never been recognized in the band I’ve worked so hard to be in, no one ever starts conversations with me unless if they want schoolwork, I’ve never gotten a “student of the week” despite being a well-rounded student, on top of many other things, but I don’t wanna ramble on too much.
Like I really don’t know if this is something other people feel, or if it’s just me. Do I feel outcasted because of intelligence, or is it just because I’m weird?