Poly for awhile but idk
My partner and I have been poly for a couple years(originally not), at first I was hesitant but I ultimately agreed.
When he goes out to see other people it makes me feel strange, I don’t know if I like it? It makes me feel kinda gross.
We do threesomes and I like those, but I don’t want to go on anymore dates I don’t want to meet new people. We have 2 people we see regularly but like if they stop seeing us I don’t want to meet anyone new. Maybe it was fun for a bit but I’m starting to feel like it’s too much.
And idk, he sees other people occasionally, and every single time I just feel bad. We talk it through but it feels like the conversation never goes anywhere. I don’t think I can just turn off that part of my brain to make it okay.
I guess where I’m struggling is because theoretically I am so on board to be polyamorous, but in practice I find it to be very exhausting.