19f and I’m an alcoholic.
Hey! This is my first submission as I’ve only just admitted that I have a problem with drinking. I know that a lot of you are probably thinking “she’s only 19 she’s just having fun and being young” but my drinking habits have turned much darker. It used to be a bit of fun on the weekends with my friends then it turned into drinking alone a few nights a week and now every single night I’m getting drunk in my bedroom when my parents goes to sleep. It’s not out of fun any more it’s out of dependency and not wanting to be sober to deal with my problems. I’m struggling a lot mentally right now and alcohol gives me a fix. I’m going through almost 2 bottles of wine a night. I feel like I’m going nowhere in life and have already ruined my life at 19. I just feel like there’s no hope for me anymore and that there is no coming back from this because I have never been at a rockier bottom. I really need some help.