Vent/ need to feel like I’m not alone
I was molested consistently for several years by my moms long term boyfriend turned my step father. I don’t have many memories before the age of about 8 but I’m led to believe that it may have started younger than I am even aware of. I as a kid could not hold my Blatter for long and still can’t it still affects me I would have accidents semi frequently as well as being terrified my entire life of sleeping alone. All that aside he was abusive to my mother physically and she claims she had no idea it was going on but large part of me feels like she had to have known. Even if she didn’t I begged her not to marry him and she did. I voiced how he was weird and made me uncomfortable constantly he would always try to hug and basically be on top of me especially if I was cooking or doing dishes he would get up behind me and breath down my neck. Eventually a girl he had assaulted years ago made a report and he was arrested which led to me finally telling my mom about the years long abuse I endured. I was made to make a statement/ report and testify at a trial and he was sent to prison 100+years/until he dies. I know that there were more victims than me all minors when the abuse started some adults now to my knowledge but not sure exactly and I can’t help but think about everything but especially the fact that my not coming forward could be the reason another girl younger than me was abused I don’t know for sure but I’ve heard murmurs and it’s been eating away at me. everything has been truthfully and when the rest of my family found out about the abuse the response was well we kind of knew but you always said you were fine and I feel like I was let down by all the adults who were supposed to protect me. And now I’m officially an adult and feel like I somehow didn’t protect that girl overall I have been feeling incredibly angry and resentful
I don’t really know why I came here I just feel so incredibly alone with this has anyone been through a similar situation?