u/Exact_Asparagus6099

I understand what happens is manifested with out thoughts and what is said aloud. My problem is that I can’t contain negativity - I complain all the time and even found myself thinking that it makes me funny for joking-complaining (does not cancel the negative word flow that happens). How do I stop? And i notice im blabbing shit so i can get attention and a laugh out of people. I fear I am losing myself in all the negative talk.