u/Exact_Can_8876

Hi its bry again I’m making this message as one final goodbye to everyone I’ve met on here and as one last thank you may 30 I’ll graduate high school June 5th I’ll turn 18 so I’m saying not goodbye to the good and bad of the past but more or a youll always be apart of me but I have to keep running forward so if anybody reading this has ocd or depression I’ll tell you this those people in your life the few or many you have will be the ones to help you see you keep them close and always cherish the kind people of this world they could be a lifelong friend or a person who held the door for you and said have a good day because everyone can be a good person and has the potential to grow and live if they trugly want to goodbye reddit this is Bryant saying thank you one last time :)

Hello I’m Bryant I’m 17 and I suffer from ocd depression and suicidal ideation for years I’ve been fighting my ocd through its mental and physical torture going to therapy and trying different meds to find a cure I felt hopeless but now I have hope I graduated school and therapy I am getting better physically and working out and I’m going to be 18 next month and finally be a adult I making this message as a goodbye and a thank you to those few who talked to me and gave hope and showed me kindness I’m making this message as a goodbye to the pain of the past and as a memory of the life I lived and a message to anybody reading this don’t give up stay determined it gets better thank you all goodbye :)

to those who responded and gave me hope thank you i feel better and am working towards growing up in a few weeks I’ll be 18 and then Ill find my own life and keep going thank you so much

basically Im 17 and I suffer from ocd meaning self hate physical and mental torture and my ocd making me do things I don’t like like hurting myself and watching inappropriate things my doctors and family say it’s okay and I haven’t done anything bad but my ocd tells me to kill myself even though I want to live because it makes it look like people will hate me because of me being genuinely pathetic and from what my ocd has put me through so please I need help someone please tell me I deserve to keep living and that I’m good and I’m just a kid I just want to live

basically I suffer from depression that is caused by ocd which isnt like the sterotypical oh I gotta clean and more a voice that is constantly telling me to end my life and hurt me both mentally and physically apart from the general your a horrible person your parents don’t deserve the pain you cause by existing and you don’t deserve to live or have friends or a family basically it is a tumor who only wants me to die and for me to do it I don’t want to talk about the attempts that it tried but I refused but yeah and besides that it makes me do things I hate like watching innappropriate stuff and putting bad memories in my head and messing with my dreams I feel so guilty I self harm by punching my arms as hard as I can to make up for my existence I’ve tried meds and therapy but nothing works I’m scared someone will find everything my ocd put me through and tell people what it does is who I am when I’m nothing like it my therapist says ocd is the inverse or you so everything good about me is the reverse for it and everything I do like it uses and corrupts it so I’m asking please help me I’m just a kid and I don’t know what to do