AuDHD in mature women
I feel like us neurodivergent folk and especially women are having an easier time while young. When we mature, we start to stick out like a sore thumb. The fact that we get burnout from masking isn’t helping either. People expect wisdom and diplomacy especially from women of a certain age. Whereas here I am, still ditsy and weird after all this time, probably more so by comparison with peers. I have been rejected more than ever lately and am more sensitive to micro-rejections too. This makes me noticeably depressed and anxious, to the point of seeking specialized help to finally get a diagnosis. I had a first appointment confirming my ADHD, and I didn’t know how to say that “you know, I’m quite sure I’m autistic as well, at least mildly” without sounding like a self-diagnosing know-it-all. The assessment lasted only a bit over half hour and was quite honestly underwhelming. I was recommended trauma therapy for starters (I do have CPTSD as well). Meanwhile I have to deal with life, masking more than ever before. It’s honestly exhausting and I prefer withdrawing from social interactions unless it’s something fun such as hikes or acoustic concerts (I’m very sensitive to sound).