I feel like im at the end of my rope and dont know what to do
im 17m, around a year ago i got into some really deep shit i cant get into on here but afterward (around the start of the year) my house got raided and everything i had was taken, in all honesty i feel like ive lost my entire life, friends girlfriend etc etc. it has had a terrible effect on my mental, ive been going to therapy and trying to get help but i feel like as the days go on i get to a lower and lower point in my life, i cant talk to anyone, no one understands the situation im in and i dont know what to do. there are some days where i feel like all of the energy from my body has been taken and its hard to move, showering feels like a chore and taking care of myself in any capacity just feels useless, even on the meds im taking nothing ever gets better, ive been trying but everything feels like its going toward the same end. my life feels like its reached a point where nothing goes up and my future just seems dead, i cant get a job (ive tried but not having a phone is difficult in itself), again i cant talk to anyone, i feel trapped. the only reason i havent taken my life yet is just due to the feelings it will inflict on everyone around me but honestly i feel like im just living to survive and nothing more, as its going my life doesnt have a purpose and all im doing is distracting myself from the inevitable, i know this is a hard read but its 3am and i dont know what else to do, please give me advice on how to go from here i dont know how much longer i can go on like this