r/depression_help

I have been taking depression meds for years now: 300 mg of Wellbutrin and 120 mg of Prozac daily. I have always harboured doubts as to whether they have had any benefits and there have been times when I have felt emotionally dead. I recently finished the last renewals of both of these and have somewhat deliberately chosen to not renew them. I know my wife is worried and I have heard/read that what I am doing could be dangerous. I'm just so tired of feeling nothing and my doctor ignored me when I tried to bring it up in my last checkup.

I have tried therapy on various occasions but have since learned that many techniques such as emdr and cbt don't work well with those blessed with autism/ADHD (I strongly suspect both in myself) so I am beginning to think that therapy guided by someone with specific experiences in neurodiversity may be more useful.

Does it sound like I am making a dangerous mistake?

Howdy

Background: I \[F26\] have a best friend \[F\] of 20 years with chronic depression. We have a very open honest and trustworthy friendship. She has had her better moments and also her down bad momets, and as chronic depression goes, it has never really gone away, really just managing it. Because of our tight relationship she is as open as it gets with her symptoms, to which I always try to thank her for expressing and sharing with me. This last year has been really bad, I think the worst it has ever been. I am familiar with the feelings of depression, but I know what I have experienced is not the same nor on the same level of what she is experiencing.

What are some things I could do that could potentially help with her day to day or continuing the expression that she has a safe human ect? I am very much aware I cant "change" things, but I would love some advice from those who have experienced such a difficulty.

Sincerely,

A desperately worried friend.

I dont know how to cope with this anymore

i have hardly any energy to take care of myself most days and it takes a lot out of me and i end up feeling worse, when i do things that involve getting up like showering and brushing my teeth

is there anything that i can do to make it less draining?

i worry a lot about bone density too but i can only walk for around 5mins daily before i get tired

i eat as healthy as i can, mainly whole foods as it’s not a lot of work

i suppose the question alone is enough. i was bullied through most of my school years, had really really bad experiences with friends. and then i just stopped having friends altogether aka i isolated myself. and now it's gotten so difficult to be even be open to meeting new people without being wary/scared of being abandoned/hurt/not accepted. i only have one friend and i adore her, but i never feel quite like i belong or that i can be fully myself.

I’ve (f63) have had MDD for as long as I can remember. As well as the major anxiety, panic attacks etc. Since I was a pre-teen.

3 years ago my husband of 39 years and 9 months died suddenly at home while we were watching tv. My best friend since we were 13 years old.
So now on top of all that I’m dealing with PTSD something called traumatic stressors disorder. And I’m sure you understand what it did for my depression.

Doing daily things is still difficult most days. Some days I still stay in bed and cry all day.

I did some things today. A really important thing. Some lesser important ones but I felt up for it. And the daily challenges like hygiene, eating something weren’t an obstacle. I’m used to him being here with a ‘you go girl!’ I’m really missing my friend.

I did so much today yet I’m still so empty.

hi! i am really new to reddit, so idk much about the platform. just a tw before hand, mentions of ovderdosing, suicide, self harm, starvation, etc will be said!!

i made this account for support, i really need some. ive been skipping school for months, and >!hurting myself!< constantly. last year, i got myself a therapist. i got prescribed on medicine and it doesnt help , at all. ever since last year, ive gotten so bad, to the point i >!starve myself!< when im bored. im also constantly in nausea and panic, aswell as anger. i keep hitting my parents, and i hate it. i really dont mean too. they try to help me, but they make things worse. they take my devices for hours on end, and tell me to go outside or just stare at a wall. the problem is, i lost all my energy to go outside, and im very scared too. i have severe BDD (body dysmorphia disorder) and social anxiety, which makes everything worse. i always see myself as a fat pig who eats everything. every night, i cry myself to sleep and wake up sore. my body always hurts and i have nothing to do, all my friends go to different schools and i stay in my room, rotting away.

i also over eat A LOT, which makes me gain weight. im very sorry if this is bad, i really dont wanna share any of my personal information, just for my safety! im just struggling really bad and i am super tired to write anymore. please help! :)

I've never known a time like this in my whole life. I feel like I'm at the bottom of the ocean.

I've gone through a few break ups and they were sad, of course, but nothing like this. This is everything.

This is the economy, no hope for the future or point even trying to pursue my dreams, the pain of losing my grandfather a few years ago which I never processed properly, my childhood abuse and trauma, the pain of leaving a city that felt like home a year ago to move to be closer to my family and to pursue my dreams, the pain of having to make a few major life decisions to just stay afloat and keep moving forward, the money only draining out, the constant sensory triggers (because I'm autistic), watching the world celebrate a few beautiful and wealthy people and all the resources going to them when people I love are in devastating times with no money and praise for their immense talents.

I'm just so fucking broken. All of this is so unfair. I feel like all my childhood naiveté has been washed away in one swoop. This year has been so horrible. I can barely get out of bed in the morning. I spend two hours every morning just in bed. I'm gaining weight. I'm eating so much food just to feel something.

I'm not doing good at all. Has anyone experienced this? Is there a way out? Is there hope? Is life normally this hard? I make posts like these all the time and no one ever replies or says anything and I just wanna give up. I just need to know there's a reason to keep fighting. Maybe my grandfather can give me a sign.

My mental health wasn't perfect before, but it was me breaking up with my ex about 9 months ago that turned my life upside down.

We were together for 6 years and I still love her deeply, and I did not want actually to break up. But in that moment I remember feeling like I didn't have a choice due to her behavior and lack of self-awareness. I gave her so many chances to improve, had a lot of patience for years and tried to communicate, but for some reason she wouldn't (or couldn't) change for me.

Breaking up is what turned my life into a constant hell. Nine months later and I still can't feel sure that I made the right decision. I ruminate constantly on whether I made the right decision or if I should try to take her back, and struggle to separate which issues in the relationship were actually real and unfixable and what was magnified by my personal anxiety and overthinking issues. This itself puts a lot of stress on me.

The relationship was far from perfect but being with her also meant so much to me. Now everything's just gone. The life we had built together and the future we had planned together. The world as I have known it my entire adult life is just gone. Now I'm so lost and life is empty.

Even though I know I broke up for a reason (or several), the guilt eats me alive some days, cause at the end of the day it was still me who made the ultimate decision to end it. It feels like I ruined my own life and hurt her in the process. I keep thinking "what if we could have gone to couple's therapy" or "what if I could have communicated better". So many "what ifs"...

Though the grief itself doesn't take over my life as much as it did the first couple months, it's still there. I still cry a lot of days thinking about what I lost and missing her.

But it has also turned into depression outside of the relationship stuff... Every day I either feel sad and on the verge of tears constantly, or overwhelmed and in an overall bad mood. I pick fights with people constantly and then regret it. I feel worthless, lazy, ugly, and like I will never be capable of getting anywhere in life or even keeping a job... Everything feels so meaningless.

I'm a grown ass adult who's supposed to be working right now, but I can't even bring myself to LOOK for a job or get anything done, which itself makes me feel even morse worthless... My physical health also feels worse than ever since I can't bring myself to leave the house to even take a short walk most days.

I've tried online therapy and it hasn't helped. I already get a good amount of sleep and try to eat well but that doesn't help. Most days I think about how I wish I could disappear without hurting the people who love me, but I know that is not possible so I have to keep living. But I hate living like this.

Wife of 5 years is breaking up with me, for the first time in years I feel completely lost and dont know what to do, my everyday life has revolved around her and our relationship.

Id like to try and work things out but she isn't wanting to atleast not anytime soon, so just have to work on my self and hopefully she will think on it and consider it.

Hello everyone before talking I wanted to say that I'm not a native English speaker and I'll try to get help with a translator I hope you understand well, I'm 21 years old and for at least 4 I've been living in a very bad psychological state talking about it and doing research I realized that I'm in a stalemate for a near depression but not having talked to a specialist I'm pretty sure personally that I'm in it, I don't know exactly what led me to be like this today, but I know that in my life I've faced very bad things in A too premature age, what problems with my parents problems of both sentimental and social relationships problems with my family, problems with bullying, let's say that everyone has always made me feel wrong or at least never happy with my results and although I committed myself with all of myself to do well to behave well nothing was ever appreciated and in the end after too long I exploded and I gave up everything, school, friends, girlfriend I stopped talking to everyone, at that time I was alone and I did nothing else In addition to movies and video games that were the only things that made me disconnect and not think because precisely from this starting point, I began to develop repressed anger, asociality, not wanting to do anything, not even wanting to get out of bed, overthinking, insomnia, no longer find happiness in anything and after years and years spent with this today after 4 years I decided to confront myself with people who have been there and have had more serious problems than mine, in summary I need help, for months and months I try to Make progress but I can't have continuity luckily I managed to cross the social barrier and today I go out I have friends I have a beautiful girlfriend the problem is everything else I don't have motivation anymore I don't find happiness I can't do things with continuity I feel like a failure and I don't want someone to write to me that I'm important or all those things because I'm not important and I'm useless, I'd like to have a quiet life have a job wake up in the morning and feel full of life, or at least not to feel down or Always tired, I want to solve this problem before myself especially for my girlfriend who is a wonderful person and has put up with me in this state for more than a year and I want to make her proud and happy with myself because in this period she has been my only motivation the only beautiful thing I have felt in the last 4 years of my life and I owe her everything otherwise I don't know how it would have ended, I want to say that I have a case of depression carried on for more than 20 years by a close family member of mine and I've always wondered if it was destined for it to be like this if it's just genetics if even trying I'll still end up like this family member of mine who takes medicine and anyway is sick and doesn't leave the house, I would like concrete help someone to tell me exactly what to do to help me try to get out of it or at least live with it.

Thank you for reading

It’s like my mind can’t think of the words, I’m not witty, my mind is slow, I can’t hold a conversation, I’m not interesting, I feel brain damaged and boring which just makes my depression worse, does anyone else experience this? Is there a way to get my mind back to a happy social interesting place again?

I'm still over 40. I'm still disabled and it's still getting worse. My body is breaking down faster than most people's do. The pain is basically low level constant and mid level regular with spikes into struggle to breathe through it. The OCD is still carefully kept at bay with all the things I'm meant to do. I do the exercise I should (and can). I've done the therapies, the treatments, I do all the 'right' things.

I can't find suitable work, even in a volunteer role. I will never have a relationship because I don't think I can offer anything worth putting up with everything detrimental. When my remaining parent dies, I will be genuinely alone, no siblings, no family I'm close to. I don't see a way to making things better for myself.

My last post got no replies. I don't actually expect this one to either, because I don't think there is really any advice to be given.

Can i please vent to someone? I feel horrible my anxiety is going crazy can i talk to someone? Preferablyt anorher girl i have trauma wirth men so im not very comfortable with them

I have started cutting myself on the shoulder and i know i shouldnt but i just do it anyway. I started because i have had severe OCD for about 2-3 years now and i feel like my parents have started to give up on me. My OCD have made it so that i basically only live half of my life if not even less. When i give in to the OCD my parents yell at me and i just shut my door and think about how they would probably be calmer if i just died. But every time i have thought about how my friends would probably be sad about me dying. So the only thing keeping me alive is my friends and i have been cutting myself to not kill myself. Do i need help?

Hey, so, I took (I think) 2 pills of Vyvanse. (Potentially 3). They are 60 mg each.
This was a stupid move, yes I know. I drank 2 bottles of spring water to hopefully dilute it.

I have ADHD so I am used to my regular 60 mg dose, but my head hurts. My chest aches a bit. Especially near the right center of my chest for some reason. My shoulders are tensed as hell and a while ago I felt my veins pumping through my head and neck without holding a finger to them.

I’m currently placing a cold watered rag on my shoulder blades since they hurt the most. Right now. Can someone tell me if this is lethal and if this can seriously fuck up my body or not.

I realized I was the one who fucked up by doing this but any advice would be appreciated 😄

Does anyone have any advice? 🌲

I feel kind of angry at everyone and like my life is going nowhere and things haven't worked out. I work a shit job at 34, can't get a boyfriend and my bio clock is ticking. College stuff was always hard and confusing to me so I felt stupid and I don't have much work history or a degree.

I've had anxiety for years and no friends and other people my age or younger are way ahead of me in life. I feel like I was neglected my whole life and treated like a burden if I was having negative feelings or needed help with adult stuff.

On top of that I was raised isolated and like other people can't be trusted. So I didn't get help from other humans. I've never had sex and that's also just depressing but I want someone who actually cares about me.

Also just being stuck making shit pay with shit hours and knowing I can't afford to move out of my parents' feels really degrading. I'm scared to even go to the doctor again. She acted shocked when I said I was a virgin. My last therapist also sucked and options are limited with Medicaid.

I've gone through so much and there's no one to share it with to get their perspective. How do I even ever make friends when they're all well-adjusted and ahead of me in life? It's embarrassing.

I'm just angry at everyone and I think it's coming out more because I'm angry at myself! I want to go back 10 years with perspective I have now. I was even more isolated then and no one gave a shit. There are people at my job who are like 21 and so happy and confident and it's sad knowing that could have been me

Anyway I'm partially venting and probably sound like an asshole but it would be nice to know if anyone relates or if you have advice. My outlook gets so negative sometimes it scares me

To be fair, "meanings" are given by human selves, but I failed to do so.
I am struggling to get on day by day and constantly feel like my sanity is on edge. More sadly, it seems the problem is rooted deep down and nothing done on the exterior could actually help (e.g. workout, reading, playing video games, watching videos, talking to ppl who care about me or total stranger, short distance travel, hangout with dogs, take walks, work, learn new things, take meds, take meds for a decade straight).

Is there a roadmap to solve this? I have tried a lot of things but... the depression episode just keeps Okkk I'm coming back. Rationally speaking, I feel very stuck. Is there anything else I could try? I just want to be alive, so maybe someday I could actually enjoy life instead of enduring it.

I went through a particularly “bad” episode not too long ago and didn’t eat for a few days and lost some weight. How can I go back into an episode like that? I have trouble losing weight (I am a naturally big guy) and it was great seeing progress. I don’t know if it is the best method but it was nice.