i was so exited to get to know this girl better and at first it was all going good texting every day.Suddenly I start getting ghosted and left on opened for 5 days and I’m trying to understand what I did wrong or if they found somebody better already.I didn’t have anybody to really talk to about my feelings so i figured that i would just post a video online to see if anybody else can relate.
In my life I feel like I annoy everybody I talk to.Some kids just talk to me in certain classes but nobody really talks to me outside of school.I feel like I’m just that annoying kid because my “friends”don’t talk to me outside school and that has deeply affected my low self confidence. This group of girls were laughing at me at the beach and then I went into the bathroom and cried like a bitch.I cry a lot and Ive never told anybody,sometimes I cry every week.I cry because I just feel useless in this life like I’m just unlikable,I don’t contribute anything to the world feel like im useless my life isn’t anything special I wake up watch tv go to the gym and play video games,I feel like I just don’t belong anywhere.I was walking to open the door for this girl in class than she looked at me and started laughing at me,I thought about that for along time the entire weekend off from school I was just sitting and thinking how can I possibly be such a weirdo,Like that’s is so disappointing imagine waiting 9 months to have me just for me to be such a failure to my parents i am a loser I’m meant to lose in this life and that’s just how it is I’ll never get anything the way I want to be.