I (25F) need help handling anger and frustration at LDR (26M)
I [25F] have been in an almost 2 year situationship with someone I do love. He [26M] moved overseas a year ago. We are going to try make it work and I am aiming to move to where he is next year, but sometimes my anger and frustration at him and the situation overwhelm me, I take it out on him, playing games, picking fights, generally being cold, toxic shit he never bites.
How do I stop feeling like this towards him? I’m just so impatient. I haven’t seen him for over a year now, I’m scared I’m losing my spark for him.
We video call once every 2ish weeks for a few hours, the time difference is so hard. Sometimes I just feel like the missing him and the longing is dragging me behind, and wonder if it’s worth it.
I feel like I’m also frustrated because we love eachother deeply, tell each other that almost everyday, he is very love-bomber but not in that way, in a way that I do truely believe he loves me so much and wants to show me he does, but we are still just a label-less situationship. He also didn’t get me anything for my birthday, but I did for him. He keeps saying “things are arriving for me” but it’s been almost 2 months.
I deactivated my instagram last week and asked if he could also then give me some space, although I did “miss him”, I felt far less pent up and angry, because I wasn’t worried about what he was doing or fretting he was with someone else. I wasn’t distracted and tbh, it felt good.