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You spoke to strangers,
You listened to strangers.
You could have said something to me,
You could have listened to something from me.
At least hope would have been created,
At least there would have been some comfort.
Even if you would not keep the promise,
You could have at least made a promise.
The sorrow of love is already a disaster,
And on top of that, this heart is another disaster.
Either you should not have given me a heart,
Or you should not have given me sorrow.
This heart, with its failed desires,
Keeps thinking:
What if it had happened this way?
What if it had happened that way?

Atomic Habits – 4 years later, and I still use it daily.

I read this book over 3 years ago, and it's one of the few self-help books that actually stuck with me. It didn't just hype me up for a week—it gave me a practical system that I still lean on every single day. The biggest shift was realizing that motivation is overrated; it's your environment and systems that carry you. I stopped relying on willpower and started designing my surroundings to make good habits easy and bad ones hard. The 2-minute rule got me out of bed to exercise, habit stacking helped me read more, and the identity shift—thinking "I'm the person who shows up" instead of "I want to lose weight"—completely changed how I see myself. After a few months, I wasn't just more disciplined; I was sleeping better, working sharper, and feeling more in control of my life. Even now, years later, I catch myself using the frameworks without thinking. It's not a magic pill, but it's the closest thing to a cheat code for consistency I've ever found. If you're on the fence—just read it. Then re-read it a year later. You'll catch something new every time.

I'm currently in clinical rotations and I'm one of the top students academically. But I feel like I'm being systematically mistreated by my instructors. Whenever questions are asked, they give chances to everyone except me. The rare times I do get to answer, I'm interrupted mid-sentence—only for the instructor to repeat the exact same answer I was giving. I've pretty much stopped speaking unless directly asked. Recently, we had to present case studies. My case was on TBI, and I was grilled with paramedic-level, highly practical questions. When I answered using something an RT had taught me clinically, the instructor shut me down with 'RT is not your reference.' Meanwhile, another student presented the exact same TBI topic and got easy questions about vent settings and ABGs. In our OSCE, I was given an incredibly difficult ABG with almost no patient history—just 'they just came in, we don't know'—while other students got straightforward cases. I study relentlessly, but I'm constantly set up to fail while other toppers who interrupt get praised for correct answers. I'm feeling demotivated, frustrated, and honestly targeted. Has anyone else experienced this? What do I do?