Dpdr + depression. What do I do?
My dpdr started when I was 17 in 2014. It happened in class when I took on agnostic religious position and teacher was telling us about demonic possession and stuff. Have lived with it for a long time now (more than 10 years). Affected my energy levels and relationships but it had become just a normal part of my life. Problems started 2020. I entered a serious relationship, I was toxic, she left me, I enter into severe depression. What Freud describes as melancholia, when you may know the object of your loss but you can’t grieve because your conscious mind doesn’t realize what you lost about the person. Depression persists. Depression turned into strong anxiety and mild brain fog around 2024, forcing me to take lexapro. Lexapro killed the anxiety. But now all I’m left is severe brain fog which affects my sense of time, speech, concentration and ability to do things. To be honest the brain fog is the worst of all this. I’ve done blood tests apart from low vitamin d everything else seems to be in place. There is a deep sadness within me which I just don’t have enough conscious power to process. What do I do?