Only child
I’m an only child (32F). NC with NM, ND, and FOO. I’ve spent several years in therapy trying to learn and enforce healthy boundaries. Now I’m left without any family.
My mom isolated me from my dad and his family for many years. Unfortunately, my dad’s side has a narcissistic family dynamic as well. Except my grandmother (my absolute everything), who raised me.
My grandma died 4 years ago, two weeks after we eloped. Ever since then, my very limited and unstable support network has disappeared because I’m establishing healthy boundaries.
Feeling triggered because I attended a baby shower for my coworker. She was able to have 50+ guests while I struggle to come up with a second emergency contact that’s not my husband. (He also lacks family support).
I’ve moved a lot since high school all over the US. Unfortunately, that leaves me without a friend group. I’m thankful for my husband who’s been there for me the last 13 years.
I’m in NYC, I would love for my husband and I to have friends to go to the bar and watch the Knicks play. It’s a small and simple activity that I long for.
I feel so emotional. I feel alone. I know this is for the best but it doesn’t make it any easier. I’m struggling to see life getting better. I’m doing my best with what I have. I’m starting EMDR next week.
I wish I had supportive family and friends. A safety net. Just something.
A home cooked meal with loved ones, a family potluck, someone to talk on the phone with… literally anything.