How much is too much smoking?
I am 31M on and off smoker (cigs and not) but recently I have been thinking about my relationship with the act of smoking. I want to note that I am mentally hyper aware.
I smoke cigarettes occasionally, started around 20, never more than 3 a day and not every day (I succumb to stress) and weed on weekends (cig sized, not blunts. is my reward for being a functional adult). In my university years I was smoking cigs everyday but around 5/day and later a bit heavier. I never really quit it completely for long periods of time.
On one hand this is obviously harmful - I should not have started, I should not do it, we know the truth. But sometimes I just sit on the fact we are all inevitably going to die, so this is bad but it’s not that if you do not smoke you live forever.
On the other hand because it has become more occasional in nature than a habit (I can stay a week without smoking cigarettes) I don’t feel like I should worry about it as much as I am. Is a guilty pleasure I allow myself to have and as long as is not a frequent or daily habit I turn a blind eye to it.
Weed is a bit different - I mix it with tobacco (sorry but the taste combo is just unmatched) and I smoke it in evenings when the next day will be off, is a way for me to take the edge of the week away and generally relax.
Can anyone help me make sense of this? Anyone experienced the same?