I'm getting tired of this
Very slow replies, always busy even though he's still unemployed, doesn't matter whether it's the weekend or not. Short calls maybe once a week on a lucky day, barely any facetimes or voice chats, and no creativity to make our long distance more emotionally engaging. When I try talking about it? "I keep trying to make this work despite being busy but it's not enough for you." By busy he means helping his aunt and uncle around the house.
When I'm sad and need him to be there for me, like today, he takes 3 hours to reply. There's 8h time difference between us btw which leaves us with roughly 7h each day to talk. A few days ago he casually announced that in 2 weeks he's moving to a different city for a project that might last a year. This means I won't see him for one year if not longer, and it's already been three months apart with no future meetup planned. What hurts though is that he didn't make me feel included in this decision at all or prepare me for it better. It almost feels like I am back to being single than in a relationship. Most of the time it feels like I am texting a random friend than a boyfriend of almost 2 years.
What makes it harder is that I am currently very isolated and barely have anyone to hang out with and I know he shouldn't be my only emotional support. But despite being in this situation and just longing to have someone to talk to I don't annoy him and try to give him his freedom. Do I say something when he barely texts me? No. Am I starting arguments with him and demanding his whole attention? No. But I know that other women would demand way more from this relationship than what I am handling and taking as "normal".
But for some reason I am just getting tired of him not being there for me more often except for a few texts per day. Even my best friend texts me more often than he does. But apart from texts, barely any voice conversations are happening in my life rn.
It hurts me a lot but at this point I don't want to break up because if that happens I will be completely and utterly alone, so this is better than nothing. But I wish I could just meet someone irl so I wouldn't have to deal with LDR. Because this sucks a lot.