I feel alone
I have a 11 week old LO and I don’t get any help. My husband works but doesn’t have a physically demanding job. I took time away from work to stay at home with my son. He has never woken up in the middle of the night with him. He has changed one diaper (not an exaggeration). He has only helped me bath him twice. When I was in labor he was working, when I gave birth it was maybe an hour later he was taking work calls and emails. He only visited my son twice in the NICU while he was there for a week. He didn’t stay with me in the hospital and I was there for 5 days because I developed preeclampsia. He went to maybe three appointments out of all my prenatals, which was a ton because I had polyhydramnios.
I’m ranting but I’m just so tired. I feel alone in this. He doesn’t take initiative with my son. When he gets home from work he stays in his truck or outside in general for hours on the phone. There is always someone or something more important than us unless he wants adult time.
Does he provide for us? Yes. We don’t worry about bills and I have been able to be there for my LO, a fact he isn’t shy to announce often. I am not ungrateful of his support. I know he loves me but I just don’t see where he finds us a priority. He cooks for us when I ask him to. But I do all the household chores. Dishes, cleaning, grocery shopping, etc to keep our household going smoothly. I just need the emotional support and the initiative with our son.
I feel alone and I can’t tell my family or his what’s really happening at home so I’m telling you.