I'm 30 and feels like a failure
Hi, it's been a while since I made a post on Reddit but I feel like I need some advice and to vent a bit.
I'm not english so I'm sorry if I make some mistakes.
I'm a woman of 30 years old, soon 31, and I always thought I'd have a different life by now. I thought I would be married, have kids and a house. It's kind of cliché, but I've always wanted that.
I was with my first love for 9 years, I ended things because he was controlling and I couldn't see myself having kids with him in the end. Today we're in good terms and he's happy and soon to be dad (he worked on his flaws and he's a better version of himself now).
Then I had a little relationship that didn't work and today I'm with someone I'm really happy with. I want to make my life with him, but he "already did" everything I want to live. He was married and have a child. He's not sure he wants anymore kids, and he's not against marriage but, when talking about a wedding, he told me that he already got "his night" but I could have "mine".
Also, my brother already have everything (wife, 3 kids, house) and my mother and sister in law are pressuring me because "time is ticking, you dont get any younger".
I feel like a failure by being my age with no kids and no wedding. I see my friends achieving their goals and fullfilling their lifes and I feel like I failed at achieving mine.
I travelled, I studied, so I've seen many things and I have a good job, but I'm missing a "family".