u/Expensive_Step_7821

I (f18)didn’t think RJ was effecting me I thought it’s normal to kind of want to know ur bf’s(m38) ex?(f25).But like I noticed myself it started not being normal when I would get upset at my bf. So like my bf would fly his ex to his country, okay normal he does that w me too but with his ex he kinda lets her stay in nice places and takes her out shopping now the shopping part kinda gets me cause he buys her Chanel, Dior, ysl like all the high end stuff while when with me and I ask for a new lipstick not even from Dior he gets fussy about it. So I started developing this feeling every time he says no to me I just think to myself “If it were your ex you wouldn’t say no” Itll kind of stop me from getting more angry and just, upset. Like crying upset. I just kept thinking and thinking how is she so much better than me she dropped out of college after a year, Im in a good college. our looks are similar to eachother except I’m more on the curvy side. I just kept thinking and thinking and thinking, why does he spoil her more but with me he’s very frugal?