4 Year SP(s) Success Story
I always imagined I’d be writing this success story, but things didn’t really happen how I anticipated. Here is my SP(s?) success story. It’s pretty long.
Around 4 years ago, I met my SP. Let’s call him Luke. Luke and I met via a dating site, and I instantly felt a crazy intense connection to him. It was like a soul tie, or like I had known him all my life. The feeling was mutual. We dated for around 4 months, I was only 23 at the time. This was before I knew about the law or any of this. I see now how I created all of these circumstances.
Around month 3, Luke told me he had to move away. I was devastated. Luke had also mentioned that he wasn’t really in the place to be in a relationship. I had never been in a relationship and had some pretty poor beliefs about relationships. I decided it would be best that we make a clean break, go no contact, and just end things.
Luke wasn’t the best at communication either, and somehow I knew that if we continued on how we were going, we’d ruin things. So I felt like a clean break might actually be the best chance we had. Luke and I cried together, and the goodbye was beautiful and bittersweet.
I then broke no contact and planned to visit Luke later on in the year. With the excuse that I was going to be in town celebrating a friend’s birthday, I told him the dates way early in advance, and he seemed excited.
I built this event up SO much in my head, but I see now how that played out against me. I had been anxious about it the whole time leading up to it. The week of, he started being dodgy with his texts until finally, the day of, he admitted he would actually be out of town the day I was in town to see him.
I was DEVASTATED.
Everything I had built up seemed like a lie.
And so, a few months later, after another all-time low not hearing from Luke, I found Neville and this whole world of conscious manifestation.
To make a long story short, I spent YEARS obsessing over every technique and doing everything I could to manifest Luke back into my life. I even hired a coach. At the same time, I was also putting in a lot of work into recreating my self concept with new and better beliefs.
I had completely become a different person. One with amazing beliefs about love, relationships, and my own self-worth.
But somehow, Luke still wasn’t coming in.
I didn’t get it.
Throughout the years, I sent a few messages here and there, but nothing ever came of them. Eventually, I decided to send one last message. A paragraph saying how I wished him well and appreciated the time we had spent together.
It was my last effort to salvage this before fully moving on, I decided.
Andddd… nothing.
Not a peep from Luke.
It broke me, but honestly, it was necessary for me to fully “give up.”
NOW, throughout this time, let’s bring a new SP in.
We’ll call him Harry.
Harry and I worked together. He quickly became a good friend of mine around two years into this whole endeavor. We had SO much chemistry, and he felt like my best friend.
It seemed like Harry was reflecting my new self concept so effortlessly. I would often manifest small things with Harry—messages, meetings, you name it. It was so easy with him.
Around a year ago, Harry and I went on a few dates but then decided to call it off and continue on as coworkers instead. Harry had a lot going on. My affections for him never faltered, though. He seemed to see me and understand me in a way I’m not sure anyone had ever before. The love I felt for him was different than Luke. Luke’s felt all consuming and written in the stars. Harry’s was steady and gentle. It was based in reality and I didn’t feel like my individuality could be lost within him.
Time goes on. I’m still TRYING every manifestation method with Luke and getting nothing. Well, I’d get a lot of signs and birds before land during the whole 3 years of conscious manifestation, but nothing in the 3D.
Now let’s cut back to me sending that last message to Luke and hearing nothing.
Shortly after, things start picking up between me and Harry again, and very naturally, might I add. I decided to just go with the flow.
We decide to try again, and Harry is showing up exactly how I’d dreamed my partner would. All except for commitment. Remember how I said I had bad beliefs about that one?
Well, this led me to finally choosing myself and walking away from Harry. I had decided: I AM a person who receives commitment. I AM a person who is deserving of that.
And I told the 3D to f itself if this is what it was trying to give me AGAIN. NO! I had changed!
So, Harry and I break up. I’m devastated. Harry had become my best friend. And though I still felt this strong tie to Luke, Harry was in my 3D. Harry WAS the man who was reflecting and showing up. Harry was the person who knew me best.
And Luke?
Well, it had been years. And to be honest, at this point, I didn’t know Luke anymore.
I decided: Okay. Harry. Harry and I are together. This is what I want and deserve. I knew I had created the breakup through my bad beliefs about commitment. And I knew it in my heart. I knew that Harry just needed some space to realize I was it for him.
And that’s exactly what happened.
About a month into our breakup, Harry messaged me that he’d like to talk. We meet up, and Harry tells me everything I had imagined. We decide we are in a committed relationship, and I’m over the moon.
Think I’m done?
NO.
In the back of my mind, a lot of doubt came in about Luke. More so about my own abilities to manifest.
How could I have spent YEARS of my life trying to manifest Luke and NOTHING. And then one month goes by and poof—Harry conforms immediately. It was honestly just a bit annoying. My affections for Luke had settled, but the “failure” of the manifestation seemed to really confuse me.
Last week, OUT OF NOWHERE…There Luke is on my phone.
He sent me a long paragraph apologizing for his flakiness throughout the years and saying how he wished he had done things differently. He wanted to reconnect.
And the kicker?
I felt nothing.
Now, I always thought I’d never be the person who didn’t want their desire once it came. There was no doubt in my mind that the second Luke came back, I would run to him. But I didn’t care anymore.
Harry had become the person I built with. Just two weeks before, Harry and I had made it official. And now I’m finding myself blocking Luke—the guy who, for YEARS, I had cried over and spent nights imagining being with. I had even PAID someone to help me manifest this man back.
Now don’t get me wrong. There was a moment where it all came back after receiving that message from Luke. But then I realized (prepare for this to be corny) that all that love I had felt, that I thought could only come from Luke, was actually just me. I thought I needed Luke to feel that love. But no. It was all my creation. I didn’t need anyone to supply that love for me anymore.
So here we are now. This was my success story. It’s not the one I imagined myself writing all those years ago. Harry and I are happier than ever. He is my best friend, and I love my reflection through him.
I had always wanted to manifest the choice of whether I’d take Luke back or not, and that’s exactly what I got. But my choice even surprised me. I was always scared at the possibility that I wouldn’t want Luke anymore if I finally let go and he came back. But all I can say is that this manifestation was never really about Luke.
Without Luke, I wouldn’t have changed so many of my beliefs or found this whole world of manifestation and “I AM.”
And for that, I will always be grateful for Luke. Now I feel the space has been created within me to start manifesting even more things for my career and life. This has been quite the journey, I feel like I'm living in a rom com. :)