I failed last night🤦came home from work and went straight to it. I was a bit overwhelmed and needed to calm down. Ended up even looking at Twitter porn. I’m a bit disappointed that I couldn’t stop myself but I woke up today determined to keep going. Not trying to think about the bad, just going to keep moving forward.
Started a few days ago, just wanted to start pretty much journaling here how it’s going for me. I started going about 13 years ago, 25 now. Long story short, I need to stop. I started going too far with it, the same old story we all have. I know I’m better than this, and I realize that it makes me less confident when I do it, atleast consistently. I want to rewire my brain the right way to view sex, and not just look at it as ass and tits. I’ve met some good women in my life so far, but my lust has kept me from ever keeping them or even turning a friend. I had a girlfriend for the last 5 years, and I’m not going to get into the details, but she is a real one. I used to be so deep in, I didn’t even realize what I had done to our relationship. I did back off since then, but i still do it from time to time and I just want to test my limits. See how long I can really away from lust in general. I do have a confession, i love gym content. I go to the gym almost everyday, and love watching the content. The content nowadays always makes me horny ngl. I try to stay away but that’s all that’s on my feed. It’s weird, Idc. I have expressed most of this to my girlfriend because I always want to be on the same page, but after a while it’s going to get weird. But thanks if you read to this point. Will be writing a short journal in the morning after my workout and night before i sleep to stay true to my commitment. Good luck.