Suspicious Lube
So I have been in hyper vigilance mode once again due to some events, and went through his bathroom cabinet and found a bottle of very specific lube that wasn’t there before. It’s specific for “suck and blow” and is basically a flavored lube for oral. First off, we have never used anything more than your basic Astroglide, and rarely so in our 13 years together. We also have had a semi dead bedroom for a while and recently finally were intimate and discussed a plan to increase our intimacy. For the record, he has multiple affairs in a 2.5 year span…one main one and then monkey branched to others. He claims he has not physically cheated for over two years (long story, he was still sexting and even in contact with AP and others).
I found this odd not only because it would be out of character for us, but furthermore because you can apparently only purchase this on the company website. It doesn’t appear in any stores or Amazon from what I can tell. Then I dug further. This particular flavor is not even currently available on their site. I then shined a light up to it, and guess what? Clearly some of it is missing. I then see lube marks and even an eyelash stuck in the rim. I am spiraling.
This is clearly not something you buy for personal masturbation. I don’t know why he would put this in his cabinet knowing I do “snoop”, but it seems to me the only logical explanation is he is still acting out. I am gutted but have no definitive proof and we now have a baby.
Not sure what I’m looking for but advice/support is appreciated.