I know I should be like ‘it’s whatever they’re gonna do what they’re gonna do’ but it hurts so bad. I compulsively distract myself with dating apps when no one actually has the slightest bit of importance. Only her. and I’m just so impatient, hopeful, hopeless, all at the same time. Any advice? I’m 3 months in with no end in sight.
God, my ocd is so bad and I needed to get this post out so I need to put this simply.
We were together for 2 years. I was aware she had bipolar 1 and was also unmedicated yet didn’t see an issue because I was struggling myself.
Point is 3 months ago she decided to move out and then terminated the relationship days later after I noticed how distant she was and was begging to talk on the phone. she refused, said “we’re done, incompatible <—(we are literally on the same frequency). Slowly removed me from all medias. Became obsessed with furries. Blocked everything and ghosted me completely. Bought a 4k fur suit just to post 30 TikTok’s and then cease. Threatened to call the cops when I showed up seeing if she could be reasoned with. Yet up to this day she won’t block my number. She went back and forth between blocking/unblocking. Don’t worry. I gave up on trying to get through to her.
My point is that I am NOT giving up on this person. We shared a life of unfathomable suffering because of previous mental health issues before the discard. But we got through them because of how close our souls were to each other. So if you’re gonna say you gotta let go or move on, dont waste your time. I am moving forward NOT moving on.
I am looking for anyone who has had anything similar and what I can think/do to comfort myself to get through this chaos.