u/Expert_Volume8435

I am on day 2 of my journey. Does anyone else have an experience like mine at this point in time. We are on day 2 of my wife finding OF receipts on my phone and I feel like I am walking around my house like a whipped dog. Today is the first day in our marriage where she took a bath and locked the door. I know things are just going to be different for a while but it really just hurts right now. I feel like I just can’t be myself for fear of upsetting her.

I am a porn addict plain and simple. I think it is very important to call it what it is and own it. I am two days clean so far. What really kickstarted this is my wife finding onlyfans charges in my emails. We have been married for almost 4 years and have a child together. This is not the first time she has caught me with porn but it is her first time realizing I was using onlyfans. I can not describe the pain and guilt it has caused me to realize that I hurt her so bad. This is my last chance to keep my family together. I already have a consultation on Monday lined up with a therapist. Does anyone have any other resources they have been using? For everyone in the same boat as me stay strong and if you don’t have anyone in your corner I’m always here. If you are starting down a road of porn addiction please just stop and get help it is not worth losing your loved ones over internet women/men that don’t care about you.