The urge to do it just because I feel like it.
I used to sh like a lot. every day. all the freaking time especially during high school. (now i’m in college 19f) I could have good streaks and go like a couple months and sometimes days but now i’ve gotten into a groove and it’s almost been a year! Sometimes i just think about it and want to do it because it just feels normal, not even when i’m sad but just chilling. idek why i feel this way because it’s been so long and i don’t want to do it anymore. It’s just i think about it all the time, like would it even count? i’m not TRYING to hurt myself it’s more for the feel and comfort, which now seems absolutely insane to say. I just wish i would stop thinking about sh and thinking about the what ifs. I’ve never posted on here and i’m not trying to get the “don’t do it bro we love you” type of comments. But i’m genuinely curious if this is a normal feeling to feel and if i should bring it up to my therapist? or just try to ride it out.