When did you bond with your second?
Sitting here at midnight, holding my 2 week old baby and just feeling...very detached. I get emotional when I think of my 20 month old. He is such a sweet little kid and it's such a fun age.
Then I think of my newest baby and yeah she's a cute squishy newborn but...she's a potato. I feed her, I rock her, I change her, rinse and repeat. She doesn't really have a personality for me to admire yet. And it makes me a bit sad. When my son was this age, everything was new and special and magical. With her, I'm just going through the motions and feeling sad that I don't have as much time to dedicate to my firstborn anymore. And waiting for her to become more aware, I guess.
So when did this change for you? I start getting a little paranoid that I will just always feel like this even though I know people say otherwise. My mom always had a clear preference for my two younger sisters and I don't want either of my children to ever feel like I don't love them just as much as the other.